trying not to be impatient

A new influence in my life is one of my teachers at school. I have never met a person who was more steeped in his practice of cultivating awareness. He has a remarkable ability to reference teachings and readings from his entire life, and throughout the course of this particular class, he has given me numerous seeds that I am planting into my own repertoire of life lessons.

We had a discussion on impatience. There are few people that I know who genuinely APPEAR as though they are patient. It just seems like everyone has their own places to be, agendas to be satisfied, obligations to adhere to...and the day is spent centered around needing. And yet we are all striving to not let those things effect us. We try not to be rattled by no shows, we try to be okay with our lunch date running fifteen minutes behind, we try to not boil when flights are delayed...yet we can't help it. Where did all of this happen? Where in the line of development did this trend win?

I Think about the chaos and unrest in our lives and beings that is merely a blossom from the tree of impatience. Because of impatience, we don't live peaceful existences and it is through outbursts of anger and short wicked tempers that are just the manifestation from a mind of impatience. We aren't concerned for the well being of others, we are really more passionate and consumed with having our own personal voids filled.

A beautiful story he shared focused on the value of patience and the danger of impatience: a man comes onto a cocoon, and thrilled that he is about to witness a true miracle of nature, he grabs it and places it in the palm of his hand. His excitement and eagerness overwhelms and he begins to blow warm air on it, to help facilitate this transformation. After a few minutes, slowly the cocoon begins to open. A struggling butterfly, with wet wings battles flight in the palm of his hand. And there right in front of him, the prematurely born butterfly dies. And he described it as one of the heaviest weights on his person. He was so consumed with his own needs, that the needs of others were abandoned.

And in this idea...I feel like we are all working on "trying not to be impatient." But isn't that what impatience is? You don't try to be patient. Either you are patient, or you aren't. But trying to be is not patience. Therefore, I work every day to one day wake up and be...patient.