easing into conflict

Good lesson today. I was trap shooting (my one claim to fame is that my great uncle invented the marvelous contraption that makes skeet shooting possible. PULL!) and during the process, there was a wonderful man standing behind me keeping me oriented along the way...and being so patient with me through all of it. He was instructing me of appropriate stance, and informing me of the mechanics of the gun, etc...

But one of the instructions he gave to me the most was "don't be so busy aiming at the target, allow your eyes to naturally follow it so then your focus is more direct." It seems trivial, but honestly it spoke to me. Because throughout my first few rounds, I was allowing my brain to dominate the experience...

The ways in which it manifested were unease when the clay pigeon was released. Immediately once I realized that a task was at hand, my body's expression was completely cognitive and I began to behave out of fear. It really was incredible. Interesting in and of itself was the fact that I could apply a relatively simple experience to a large life challenge.

I was able to see myself enter into conflict and the way that I approach it. I was able to see my natural inclination to be cognitive, in my head with confusion and fear...I shot my gun with anxiety at the source. All I was doing was aiming, when I should have been naturally following, and allowing the situation to run its course and flow with it's process. And what a lesson to learn.

Now I know that when negative charge stands in my path, I will make sure to connect my head and body, to make my emotional and physical being be one. Because when I do that, my expression is more free and fluid and not static. The moment I stopped aiming and started following and accepting, I hit targets. Approach negative charge with ease.